Not Living ..

 i wanted so bad to write about living the dream

but the sad truth is ..

through all these years 

only nightmares coming true , 

almost all my nightmares coming back to life 

happening with every piece of detail

all the cold lonely nights

and all the darkness with fear

that i never wanted to tell anyone about 

and i didn't want to remember those feelings

running away and running toward the unknown

never reaching the end ..

 life is unfair 

but we have to go on and on ..

 

 

 

 

Reflection of a girl

Nightmares still!
Karma please .. easy with those broken pieces of her heart

In the mirror; she still see a reflection of that girl
standing still ..
cold and lonely,

Although she tried hard and harder each time
That she even kept hope and held her wishes
But life kept knocking her down
every time she rose up.

Let me tell you this: 
if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, 
It's not because they enjoy solitude,
It's because they have tried to blend into the world before,
And people continue to disappoint them.

Our Story ..

When i look back to all those years - our years together - i like to think it was all written above; our normal days with all happy moments and even the hard days we went through together. 

Everything happened for a reason and never would we pass all hardships without your support and loving heart. I might never told you before things my words can not describe but i sometimes wonder and think that maybe one day you can read everything i write about what i kept deep down my heart. 

We were meant to be together, and since then you are my everyone; my love and my best friend. 

If one day you read those words you will know the whole story; and everything in it is true and if i had another chance to decide and start over; i will choose You - together - without a second thought, forever and ever after.

Follow your heart ..

imagine that you can dream any dream you want; and live that dream to the fullest, a dream where you can be anywhere you want with anyone you choose to be with .. then screw the box that life keep offering you to fit in ..

You will not fit in that box if you kept trying to draw your own path, if you followed your heart you will see things clearer ..

Battles and building castles on your own, we keep running in circles    

 How come you forget all about her!! the times she needed you the most, when she needed to talk and tell you about her thoughts and her monstrous fears ..

 Other times you make her feel like reaching the highest star above and holding the whole universe within her eyes ..

If only she could listen to your thoughts and unspoken words ..

things will change eventually 

If for once you followed your heart