Not Living ..

 i wanted so bad to write about living the dream

but the sad truth is ..

through all these years 

only nightmares coming true , 

almost all my nightmares coming back to life 

happening with every piece of detail

all the cold lonely nights

and all the darkness with fear

that i never wanted to tell anyone about 

and i didn't want to remember those feelings

running away and running toward the unknown

never reaching the end ..

 life is unfair 

but we have to go on and on ..