Not Living ..

 i wanted so bad to write about living the dream

but the sad truth is ..

through all these years 

only nightmares coming true , 

almost all my nightmares coming back to life 

happening with every piece of detail

all the cold lonely nights

and all the darkness with fear

that i never wanted to tell anyone about 

and i didn't want to remember those feelings

running away and running toward the unknown

never reaching the end ..

 life is unfair 

but we have to go on and on ..

 

 

 

 

Lighten your heavy heart

 When our minds are busy, we can be easily overwhelmed and distracted, but our brains usually find a way to process and release. Our hearts on the other hand, hold everything dearly.

Our hearts hold love and joy, but they also hold pain, worry, guilt and sadness. Our hearts helps us feel all the things, and not just our own things. Our hearts take on the whole world. Sometimes it’s too much though, and all of those feelings get heavy. When our hearts overflow with the heavy stuff, we ask questions like …

• Why am I so sad?
• Why does this hurt so much?
• Will I get through this?
• When will I feel better?
• What can I do?

Or, instead of asking the questions, we shut down. Our hearts close for a while and we disconnect from all the feelings, even the good ones. It’s in that time that we usually become apathetic, depressed, lonely, or hopeless..

The heart wants what the heart wants, but there are ways to soothe your soul, and to lighten your heavy heart.

Hope will lighten your heavy heart..

In every tragedy, or painful time, there are blessings. They don’t justify the pain, but when you keep your heart open to the goodness, you can see the way through. 

Whatever your struggle is today, claim your openness to the blessings that have yet to appear and then give them room to rush in.

Time will lighten your heavy heart..