Reflection of a girl

Nightmares still!
Karma please .. easy with those broken pieces of her heart

In the mirror; she still see a reflection of that girl
standing still ..
cold and lonely,

Although she tried hard and harder each time
That she even kept hope and held her wishes
But life kept knocking her down
every time she rose up.

Let me tell you this: 
if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, 
It's not because they enjoy solitude,
It's because they have tried to blend into the world before,
And people continue to disappoint them.

Our Story ..

When i look back to all those years - our years together - i like to think it was all written above; our normal days with all happy moments and even the hard days we went through together. 

Everything happened for a reason and never would we pass all hardships without your support and loving heart. I might never told you before things my words can not describe but i sometimes wonder and think that maybe one day you can read everything i write about what i kept deep down my heart. 

We were meant to be together, and since then you are my everyone; my love and my best friend. 

If one day you read those words you will know the whole story; and everything in it is true and if i had another chance to decide and start over; i will choose You - together - without a second thought, forever and ever after.

Belonging ..

Where do we belong ?
We belong together .. to one another ..


She didn't belong anywhere and she never really belonged to anyone. And everyone else belonged somewhere and to someone. People thought she was too wonderful. But she only wanted to belong to someone. People always thought she was too wonderful to belong to them or that something too wonderful would hurt too much to lose. And that's why she loved him-- because he just thought she was crazy and different in every beautiful way.

We belong together ..

Because i'm a part of your soul and you are every part of my heart; we are one, and we were born from the same star ..

  

A deep sense of love and belonging is an irreducible need of all people. We are biologically, cognitively, physically, and spiritually wired to love, to be loved, and to belong. When those needs are not met, we don't function as we were meant to. We break. We fall apart. We numb. We ache. We hurt others. We get sick.
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A deep sense of love and belonging is an irreducible need of all people. We are biologically, cognitively, physically, and spiritually wired to love, to be loved, and to belong. When those needs are not met, we don't function as we were meant to. We break. We fall apart. We numb. We ache. We hurt others. We get sick.
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A deep sense of love and belonging is an irreducible need of all people. We are biologically, cognitively, physically, and spiritually wired to love, to be loved, and to belong. When those needs are not met, we don't function as we were meant to. We break. We fall apart. We numb. We ache. We hurt others. We get sick.
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A deep sense of love and belonging is an irreducible need of all people. We are biologically, cognitively, physically, and spiritually wired to love, to be loved, and to belong. When those needs are not met, we don't function as we were meant to. We break. We fall apart. We numb. We ache. We hurt others. We get sick.
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A deep sense of love and belonging is an irreducible need of all people. We are biologically, cognitively, physically, and spiritually wired to love, to be loved, and to belong. When those needs are not met, we don't function as we were meant to. We break. We fall apart. We numb. We ache. We hurt others. We get sick.
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Daring to set boundaries is about having the courage to love ourselves, even when we risk disappointing others. Brene
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A deep sense of love and belonging is an irreducible need of all people. We are biologically, cognitively, physically, and spiritually wired to love, to be loved, and to belong. When those needs are not met, we don't function as we were meant to. We break. We fall apart. We numb. We ache. We hurt others. We get sick.
Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/topics/belonging

A deep sense of love and belonging is an irreducible need of all people. We are biologically, cognitively, physically, and spiritually wired to love, to be loved, and to belong. When those needs are not met, we don't function as we were meant to. We break. We fall apart. We numb. We ache. We hurt others. We get sick.
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Follow your heart ..

imagine that you can dream any dream you want; and live that dream to the fullest, a dream where you can be anywhere you want with anyone you choose to be with .. then screw the box that life keep offering you to fit in ..

You will not fit in that box if you kept trying to draw your own path, if you followed your heart you will see things clearer ..

Battles and building castles on your own, we keep running in circles    

 How come you forget all about her!! the times she needed you the most, when she needed to talk and tell you about her thoughts and her monstrous fears ..

 Other times you make her feel like reaching the highest star above and holding the whole universe within her eyes ..

If only she could listen to your thoughts and unspoken words ..

things will change eventually 

If for once you followed your heart

 

|| Unsolvable Problems ||

“We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you’ve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn’t until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems—the ones that make you truly who you are—that we’re ready to find a lifelong mate. 

Only then do you finally know what you’re looking for. You’re looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: it's got to be the right wrong person—someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, “This is the problem I want to have.”

I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way.” 

Wanted to be Wanted ..

You can talk with someone for years, everyday, and still, it won't mean as much as what you can have when you sit in front of someone, not saying a word, yet you feel that person with your heart, you feel like you have known the person for forever...
connections are made with the heart, not the tongue.” 

It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't come back. You're left so alone that you can't explain.

Contradictions - unsolved

What are we ?
i don't understand our relationship;
sometimes we are friends, sometimes we are more than friends and sometimes i'm just a stranger to you. 

One minute you are talking to me as if i'm someone special and the next minute you are talking to me as if i mean nothing to you.

One day you pay so much attention to me, and then the next day you completely ignore me as if we never met before.

So just don't play with my feelings because you are unsure about yours.

Same questions torn between unsaid words and unspoken truth, same questions running in circles just can't find answers and then nothing stays the same.
 

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